23 June 2013 - movie night (IronMan 3)

To My Lovelies,

I still remember when we watch IronMan 3 here in Singapore. Joshua was laughing so hard on IronMan's bloopers while Ate have already fallen asleep. I hope we can do this again soon. I miss you and I love you.

-Mommy

Joshua's IronMan pose

compared to hi Spiderman pose

20 June 2013

to my lovelies,

Here was a poem I wrote in 2006. Always remember, you define me.

-Mommy

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I was once a wanderer in this unpredictable world
Until you came and turn the tide.
Now I know what I am here for.

There were days when I need to drag myself up,
when I started hating the rising sun,
when I find solace in the dark corner of my room
But now I know what I am here for.

When you came I was reborn
I started to see colors of different hues
I began to take life as something I have never before had
I learned to appreciate every breath.

In your eyes I see a whole new world.
In your words I understand more.
In your every step I discover how I should live life.
In your every stumble I rekindle my faith.

With your little kisses and tight little hugs
My strength is renewed, my battle wounds healed.
For each day I spend with you,
And for every little surprises you bring through,
the more I know what I am here for.

Mommy Diary 19 June 2013

Dear Lian and Josua,

One thing that I love to do with you, and for you, is to create your chosen costumes in time for Halloween. I used to bring you and cousins Mickey and Gian in my old office so you can join the yearly Trick or Treat. It saddens me that I haven't done that for two years now. But if you could just please allow me to go down memory lane, and be reminded of the fun we used to have during those times.

I love you.

Mommy

as a fairy with cousin Mickey

as Sabina, inspired by Angel Locsin's Majica

Ate as Hermione Granger and Joshua as Harry Potter, with Mickey and Gian (Bella & Edward of  Twilight)

 

 

Josh as Paul, Lian as Michael Jackson

Mommy Diary 18 June 2013

Ate, I am making this promise now - to let you know, each and every day, at least through words, how much I love you, adore you and how proud Mommy is of you and Joshua. Since I felt you inside me 11 years ago, I knew what God's plan is for me. That is, to be able to raise you, guide you and make sure you will have the best life that you and Josh deserve. With Daddy by my side and all the people who love you just as much, I will make sure this plan will be fulfilled. I may be far from you, but my heart goes with you wherever you are. I love you so dearly my beloved Princess. - Mommy


Joshua, I am making the same promise I did with Ate to you. You will always be my little sunshine. With how you cope with things at school, in your own cool and easy way, at your own pace, I will always be amazed. Just you bedimpled smile is enough to brighten even my gloomiest day. You and Ate complete me. I pray you will never be ashamed of me when I shower you with kisses, smell you armpit or act like a crazy stage-mom. I love you Ota. Remember what you promised me - that when the time comes you will have a girlfriend, you will only take her if Mommy approves of her I love you! - Mommy

And so I promise

Above everything that I am, and could still be, I am a mother. Nothing can stop me from being one though the current sitution holds me from being physically there for my kids.

I am a woman of so many words and what's the better way to let eveybody know how much I adore my kids than through blogging it. Better make use of technology for this endevour, right?

What I am is that this blog would be my avenue to let my children see and know how much of a hold they have of me; of how much I spent each and every minute of my life thinking of them, of their well-being; of how my life and world revolves around them.

And I pray that when they are older they get to read this again, and see that though I am not there beside them as much as I want to, my heart, soul and mind are with them.

My two little precious ones - Mary Julliane and Mikhail Joshua. You are Mommie's best gift from heaven and the reason why I was born.